We have such a love/hate relationship with our smartphones. Just like we have love/hate relationships with just about everything. That’s how duality works. We don’t just pick things that are good and things that are bad – we actually infuse everything we love with aspects we hate, and vice-versa. Non-duality is an understanding that there is no good and bad . . . but I digress.
The GPS on my smartphone is one of my favorite apps for a number of reasons: I’m constantly running late and need to find the fastest route; I want to avoid heavy traffic; I want to see if there is a better route to a place I visit frequently; and, most of all, I want to explore parts of town I’ve never seen. I love to drive and I love seeing new stuff. It’s hard to know what you don’t know about your town. I like to explore, especially when I can explore new stuff on my way to my actual destination.
This is what A Course In Miracles feels like to me. I get to go down every back road in the world if I want to. I can take odd turns and back-track and reroute as many times as I want to, without penalty. At any moment, my GPS put me back on the fastest road to my destination.
The kicker is, there is no judgment! The Course says the Holy Spirit – or Voice for God – is perfectly happy to sit and wait for my readiness. I have the ability and the opportunity to go down as many back roads and end up on as many cul-de-sacs as I like. I like having the option to change my mind. The Course says that my mind is the only thing that can change. It’s true that the Holy Spirit wants me to take the fastest, most direct route back to God, but if I’m not ready to stop messing around here, I’m not judged. There is no sin. There is no punishment, except what I inflict on myself.
To me, this is comforting idea. I take wrong turns and willfully go down back roads that don’t lead me back home. I choose wrongly again and again. But there are no consequences. I am wasting time, but since time is not real, I am wasting nothing.
The Holy Spirit is content to wait for me to change my mind. I get very clear signals that I’m headed down the wrong road. In my map app, it’s Siri telling me to ‘Make a U-Turn’. The Course says that I will know I’m off course because I’m not feeling joyous.
“When you are sad, know this need not be. Depression comes from a sense of being deprived of something you want and do not have. Remember that you are deprived of nothing except by your own decisions, and then decide otherwise.” (ACIM Text Ch 4, Part 4, Paragraph 3)
When I decide I’ve had enough wandering, when I’m not joyous, Voice for God is there. It will guide my steps very minutely, turn by turn. It waits only for my decision. I don’t need to be afraid of asking for help, even when I’ve ignored the help I asked for last time . . and the time before that. The Voice for God has patience that is literally infinite. There is nothing you can do to separate yourself from God. Only in your illusion of sleep are you ever lost. Thankfully, our Father sent this very solid, infallible guide to get us home. There is never an instance when you ‘can’t get there from here.’ God does not will his Son be lost, so we cannot be.
No matter how willfully we try to lose ourselves, the Holy Spirit is there to reroute us again. Knowing that gives me great confidence and courage. I’m always safe.